Why? Come on. Who wants to go tell another person and God what mistakes we’ve made to cause breaks in our relationship with God and others?
Another reason is, I get anxious. I am a people pleaser. I worry all the time whether I am saying the right things … and in Reconciliation I feel that even more intensely.
However, I know I need to work at putting those things aside and focusing on the true meaning of the sacrament. Bishop Joe reminded me of that today.
Reconciliation is for healing, but it is also medication.
That is, as we recognize our sins and ask for forgiveness, God brings us back and heals us with God’s mercy and forgiveness.
But for those deeper wounds that may cause us to sin again – those hurts we struggle against letting go of, for example – Reconciliation and God’s forgiveness provide medication.We need it to help us cure the deeper wounds that keep flaring up. We need it to help prevent future sin.
Reconciliation isn’t easy. It takes work. It takes a desire to change … and change is not always quick!
But with God’s continued help, conversion can and does take place. God will help us to change and grow; God will help us to become holier people, over the course of our entire lifetimes.
So, I’m telling me as I tell you: Hang in there. It will get better. 🙂